Lately I have been thinking, mostly at 1am when I should be sleeping, which can be dangerous I know. There are many questions and thoughts going around my head but the main one is
Am I happy with my blog?
If I am completely honest – no I am not. I may use the hashtags mummy blogger or parent blogger but I don’t feel like one. Yes I am a mum, and I blog about my child, so I guess technically that does make me a mummy blogger. I love sharing posts and pictures of what we have been up to. This blog is even named after my daughter! But then there is the other part of my blog name – rocks, and I don’t mean geological ones!
Please don’t take this the wrong way fellow mummy/parent bloggers, but it’s not you its me. I know we all heard that in another way more controversial post than this will ever be! Don’t worry I’m not about to go on a rant about how mummy bloggers suck, quite the opposite I think you all rock! I just think I suck at being a mummy blogger!
Whilst I like sharing the things we have done I’m not one for writing the typical parenting posts. I spend ages thinking of ways to jazz up my life and make it sound interesting. But I shouldn’t be doing that. I want to be honest and not sugar coat life. Some days are great and some days are hard, really bloody hard! We all have those days, the ones where you have a billion and one things to do, a screaming toddler and you can’t even get out of your pjs until lunchtime! At least I hope that’s not just me!
I am a stay at home mum, I look after Clem, I clean, I cook. In fact I love to cook, I don’t blog enough about my love of cooking. I also love music, watching tv and Netflix, doing crafts and stationery. I used to be obsessed with film cameras, I own several and I would love to blog about all those things. However I feel like I’ve stuck myself in the category of ‘parent blogger’ and I can’t. Which is silly, I know. It’s my blog so I can blog about whatever I want. So that’s what I’m going to do.
I’m going to blog more for myself. When I first started this blog up as a way of keeping my brain going whilst being a stay at home mum. I didn’t think about readers or PR or doing reviews when I started. Google analytics is a whole new world to me, I still don’t really know what I’m doing! I like blogging, I really do. But I feel like the time has come to step back from the parenting side of the blog. I’ll still be talking about Clem and being a parent but it’s not going to be the only thing. I was thinking of changing the name, but I can’t. Clem definitely rocks, and that won’t stop. In fact I’m sure she’s only going to get better.
I want to write more for me, what I’m about. I’m more than just a mum and I need to start believing that! I want to get back into crafts, learn more about photography and enjoy it! I want to share adventures in the kitchen. Both good and bad.
There are also some big life changes going on at the moment as well. These are another reason why I’ve been rather quiet on the old Twitter/Insta/Facebook and blog lately. We have decided to move, well I guess relocate. We currently live in commuters-ville. Don’t get me wrong we have a great park and there are some wonderful places around us but Jesse now has a job which means he can work from home. However we have a two bedroom flat which has been taken over by a toddler. The main office for his job is in Lewes, near Brighton. He does need to travel down there once a week, so we are going to be looking at Brighton, Hove and the surrounding areas.
Now we aren’t sure if this is a good time to be doing this what with all the brexit and stuff. However having spoken to the bank about mortgages we have a decision in principle and our estate agent has 5/6 clients who they think would be interested in our flat straight away. So *fingers crossed* it all goes ok. It sounds really silly to say this given that we already own our flat but I’m terrified! It feels incredibly grown up to buy a property, and sell one!! I have no idea of what we should be doing. Don’t get me wrong we know what we want from a property. I’ve watched enough of Kirsty and Phil to know that! It’s all the legal/paperwork side of things that are going to be complicated. Buying a house seemed ok compared to selling one and then buying another one!
Do any of you live in Brighton (or near by) and can recommend areas to look at that are good for families, or even better – the areas to avoid! We do have family down there so this isn’t some crazy idea that we have suddenly come up. We go there quite a lot, and have always enjoyed it. In fact we have several photos on our wall that we have taken in Brighton so they’ve always been a bit of a reminder of there. It also seems like a great place to bring up Clem.