I’ve been feeling quite down lately, both about myself and blogging. I spend an awful lot of time comparing myself to others. I know I shouldn’t do it but it’s so hard not to. I’ve been finding it hard to get motivated to write, which is weird as I have a billion things I want to write about. I just cannot find the words. I’ve even lost interest in reading other blogs which is something I used to love doing. Before starting my own blog I used to read mainly fashion, beauty and lifestyle blogs. Until I became pregnant and then I ventured into the world of parenting blogs. However, the other day as I was endlessly scrolling through twitter I saw two posts by two bloggers who I really like.
Both Callie and Zoe’s tweets immediately jumped out at me. I instantly clicked on both of these posts and they were ones I really needed to read. It’s refreshing to see, what I consider big bloggers, feeling a similar way to me. One of the reasons I started blogging in the first place was to stop loneliness. As a first-time mum I was (and still am) incredibly lonely. I suffer from low self-esteem/social anxiety. Having both of those makes it incredibly hard for me to make friends. I tend to avoid most social situations. Which is why going to this was such a big deal for me. I think I did pretty good at hiding the sheer terror I was feeling inside.
After reading her post it was interesting to see that Callie doesn’t think of herself as a girl boss because I would totally think she is. She was featured in a Vogue article recently along with Kendall Jenner, Selena Gomez and a whole host of others. Personally, she is leading the way in plus size fashion. I haven’t spoken about this but I have put on a lot of weight since I stopped breastfeeding.
Not me, so I’ve really been struggling with clothes. It’s nice to see that larger ladies can look good in clothes. Through Callie I have found a whole heap of awesome plus sized bloggers/Instagrammers to follow. Also a huge high-five to her for keeping those plants alive. I usually kill plants straight away so I know how tough that is!
I also love how inspiring Zoe is. If you haven’t read her blog before you should. The photography and vlogs she produces are amazing, like seriously check them out. They make me want to travel, see the world and own a drone. Her hair is also goals. We shouldn’t look at other bloggers as competition. If someone gets an awesome opportunity but you don’t, don’t be mean about them. Support them, give them a high five and say woo. Your time will probably come. So her point about having a girl gang to be inspired by and support is so true. I’m not sure I’ve found mine yet but I hope I will soon.
Make or break time.
This week is Clems last one at pre-school before the summer holidays. From September she will be going for longer hours and more days. This means I will have more time. So do I actually try to make it as a blogger, or do I get a job and stick to blogging here and there.
What does making it as a blogger mean? I’ve had a few paid opportunities, does that mean I’ve already made it? Or is it when you have the big numbers on social media and get invited to x amount of events/trips? People can easily boost numbers now, you can buy followers on Instagram, twitter and facebook. Everyone has a different view on this. I guess just writing a blog means that you are technically a blogger, and if you make money from it then it’s just a bonus.
If I have more time I could be more organised with my blogging. I could actually work on promoting my posts, or even just writing my posts! But then it all comes back to that word at the beginning. Motivation. Having more time doesn’t mean I will be more motivated. But I’m certainly going to try. Like Zoe says I’m going to spend less time comparing myself to others. I’m just going to stick to doing my own thing. If anyone wants to join me then please do.