It’s been over 19 months since Clem was born and we are still breastfeeding! I’m actually amazed we made it 2 weeks let alone 19 months. I’ve written before about the beginning of our breastfeeding journey and I feel like this post is the beginning of the end. Clem is definitely wanting it less than she used to. If she’s ill then it increases but now it’s mainly just at bedtime and the occasional point during the day. Usually when she is tired and we are out and she’s finding it hard to nap. Other times it’s just for comfort.
Despite the hard beginning I am incredibly proud and amazed we’ve made it this long. I honestly never expected to still be going. I love the closeness it brings, and the little things she now does. Before when she was younger it was just boob, milk. Now she strokes my arm or face, pulls at my lips and face which can be quite annoying, especially if we are in public. She also loves to just dive down my top and grab a handful which again, fine at home not so great when sat in a coffee shop with friends or eating at a restaurant. But hey if she needs to eat, she needs to eat.
I remember the first few times I had to feed Clem in public. I was really nervous about doing it, especially as she hated being covered up. In the end I realised that no one really takes any notice of you. I’ve learnt to do it discreetly enough and as long as I wear a vest top under whatever I’m wearing then I’m fine. I have had a few bad experience whilst breastfeeding in public which isn’t great. You often read about women being told to stop, it’s disgusting and I’ve probably had the occasional stare but the only really bad thing that sticks in my mind was this one time when I was sat in the car in the car park of tesco. Jess was shopping with his mum and I was sat in the car feeding Clem and a man knocked on the window shook his finger/hand at me and looked angry before walking off. I didn’t really have time to process what had happened or even react. I was just confused by the whole thing. I’ve breastfed pretty much everywhere now on a ferry, in a park, restaurant – even in the Sky Garden in London! That was probably the best view I’ve had whilst doing it.
I will definitely miss it when we eventually stop but they are also somethings that I’m looking forward to. I won’t be restricted to wearing boob access friendly clothes all the time, skater dresses can become a part of my wardrobe again. My body will start to feel like mine again. Don’t get me wrong I’ve loved breastfeeding Clem but it’s hard work. The body does an amazing thing, for the first 6 months of her life I kept Clem alive, fit and healthy all by the power of boob. I’m really glad we carried on and didn’t give up. Although the on demand feeding starts to take its toll after a while, the cluster feeds at the beginning felt like a lifetime. The soreness which everybody warns you about but definitely can’t prepare you for.
Has anyone else breastfed for this long? Do you miss it or could you not wait to stop? I’d love to know your experiences so please fee free to leave a comment.